I haven't written in a month. That is how long it has been since I got bumped out of the legacy prize by a business man who wants to increase his autistic son's self esteem by asking all his business friends to vote for his son, Never mind that it takes him all of 3 minutes to paint some lines on a page. Never mind that his teacher frequently holds his hand with his paint brush in it. Never mind that it takes me weeks to complete a piece of work. Never mind that I have no more money for supplies. Never mind that I can not compete like a regular person. Never mind that I was one of two people who spent all of the second day and the Art Museum when no one else did. I am so angry. I can find no peace here any more. I am no longer sure I want to paint. I do not sell any pictures. I do not know how to deal with any of this. No selling no material to paint no painting. It will be a while till I find my way back. Sorry all.
Elaine
About Me
- Elaine's Art
- I spent over twenty five years as a counselor. Now I practice painting allot because I don't have to talk. I have speech disability and coherently speaking is difficult. I also have difficulty understanding verbal communication at times. This condition happened five years ago after a 7 1/2 hour surgery to correct a back condition. I am no longer who I was but I am becoming who I now am. The door for me as a counselor is now closed. I am walking through a new life in the beautiful world of watercolor painting.
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